Saturday, July 23, 2016
Saturday, January 23, 2016
The Sun and Moon
If you cry because you miss the sun, your tears will not let you see the moon ….African Proverb
It has been a while since I jumped into the unknown. It was
sad to leave my home in Gulu this week; my friends, the familiar shops,
restaurants, streets, and most of all my pigs. But if I let my tears prevent me
from seeing the adventure before me I will miss it. I took an unfamiliar walk
to an unfamiliar town, with unfamiliar shops, restaurants, and languages…I
spoke three! I passed the refugee camp set up for the families fleeing conflict
in Burundi…the children, maybe 30 or 40 came running over to the improvised
barrier (a piece of string tied to trees), they wanted to shake my hand, to
greet me, to touch my skin, to smile and say “bonjour”. The young man with them
told me they like whites and they would be starting to learn English on Monday.
Together we taught them to say “I’m fine” in response to my greeting and “goodbye”
when I left. It is the first time since I first walked on to Mother Teresa
Primary School three and a half years ago that I felt that kind of joy that
comes from knowing you are in the right place, right now.
In the shop I found another young man who had enough English
that I was able to do my little shopping. He sent me next door for milk where
the three ladies had only Kinyarwanda, so we used sign language and smiled a
lot. There was no milk, but I did buy some water.
Rwanda is so different from Uganda and Gulu, there are no
outside venders, no goods displayed outside the shops, no people just lazing
around or playing cards. It is quiet, peaceful, orderly and clean. The only
thing that disturbs the calm are the big dump trucks the Chinese brought to
steal the top soil and move it to the lake’s edge where they are growing rice,
I hope the hippos eat it all. This adventure, creating and teaching in Rwanda
will allow me to keep all that we have built in Gulu running. I will be paid
for the first time in two years, my housing and food provided, so the students
in our program can go to school one more year…and maybe we will have enough to
send them all to programming camp next year.
There is a lot to learn in my new country and Gulu will always be my sun; but for now I am seeing the moon... and the stars.
Friday, October 9, 2015
Independence, Liberty, Freedom
Today is Independence Day in Uganda. Fifty-three years
ago the British government gave up its colonial hold on this “Pearl of Africa”.
This got me thinking about what independence means, how it relates to freedom
and liberty. So being curious I looked it up!
Independence: the
time when a country or region gains political freedom from outside control
Freedom:
enjoying civil and political liberty, not subject to the control or domination
of another; made, done, or given
voluntarily or spontaneously, not bound, confined, or detained by force.
Liberty: the
quality or state of being free: the
power to do as one pleases; freedom from
physical restraint; freedom from
arbitrary or despotic control; the positive enjoyment of various social,
political, or economic rights and privileges; the power of choice
So while independence is a good thing to celebrate, political
freedom from outside control; more important is liberty. Because being
independent does not guarantee liberty. Social, political, and economic rights
being absent, does it matter if a country is independent if its people are
without liberty? The ability to travel outside its borders, the ability to
receive an education and healthcare, the ability to use their voice without
fear of arrest, the ability to disagree and demand change, are all necessary for the people who make up the very fabric of
a country to enjoy independence. One step at a time. Enjoy the thoughts of others on the subject
of Liberty! (remember all quotes should always be read in their full context).
“They who can give up essential liberty to obtain a little
temporary safety deserve neither liberty nor safety.”
― Benjamin Franklin, Memoirs of the life & writings of Benjamin Franklin
― Benjamin Franklin, Memoirs of the life & writings of Benjamin Franklin
“People demand freedom of speech as a compensation for the
freedom of thought which they seldom use.”
― Søren Kierkegaard
― Søren Kierkegaard
“Those who deny freedom to others, deserve it not for themselves” -- Abraham Lincoln
“What difference does it make to the dead, the orphans and
the homeless, whether the mad destruction is wrought under the name of
totalitarianism or in the holy name of liberty or democracy?”
― Mahatma Gandhi
― Mahatma Gandhi
“If liberty means
anything at all, it means the right to tell people what they do not want to
hear.”
― George Orwell
― George Orwell
“For to be free is not merely to cast off one's chains, but
to live in a way that respects and enhances the freedom of others.”
― Nelson Mandela
― Nelson Mandela
“Disobedience is the
true foundation of liberty. The obedient must be slaves.”
― Henry David Thoreau
― Henry David Thoreau
“I would rather be exposed to the inconveniences attending
too much liberty than to those attending too small a degree of it.”
― Thomas Jefferson
― Thomas Jefferson
“Freedom is not something that anybody can be given. Freedom
is something people take, and people are as free as they want to be”
― James Baldwin
― James Baldwin
“I am an American; free born and free bred, where I
acknowledge no man as my superior, except for his own worth, or as my inferior,
except for his own demerit.”
― Theodore Roosevelt
― Theodore Roosevelt
“People have only as much liberty as they have the intelligence
to want and the courage to take.”
― Emma Goldman
― Emma Goldman
“The end may justify the means as long as there is something that justifies the end.”
― Leon Trotsky, Their Morals and Ours
“Nothing is more difficult, and therefore more precious, than to be able to decide.”
― Napoléon Bonaparte
“A primary object should be the education of our youth in
the science of government. In a republic, what species of knowledge can be
equally important? And what duty more pressing than communicating it to those
who are to be the future guardians of the liberties of the country?”
― George Washington
― George Washington
“Those who expect to reap the blessings of freedom, must, like men, undergo the fatigues of supporting it.”
― Thomas Paine
“Is life so dear, or peace
so sweet, as to be purchased at the price of chains and slavery? Forbid it,
Almighty God! I know not what course others may take; but as for me, give me
liberty or give me death!”
― Patrick Henry
― Patrick Henry
“I know no safe depository of the ultimate powers of the
society but the people themselves ; and if we think them not enlightened enough
to exercise their control with a wholesome discretion, the remedy is not to
take it from them, but to inform their discretion by education. This is the
true corrective of abuses of constitutional power.”
― Thomas Jefferson, Letters of Thomas Jefferson
― Thomas Jefferson, Letters of Thomas Jefferson
“I am not free while any woman is unfree, even when her
shackles are very different from my own.”
― Audre Lorde
― Audre Lorde
“Liberty means responsibility. That is why most men dread it.”
― George Bernard Shaw, Man and Superman
“If a free society cannot help the many who are poor, it cannot save the few who are rich.
[Inaugural Address, January 20 1961]”
― John F. Kennedy
“A true revolution of values will soon cause us to question the fairness and justice of many of our past and present policies. ... A true revolution of values will soon look uneasily on the glaring contrast of poverty and wealth. With righteous indignation, it will look across the seas and see individual capitalists of the West investing huge sums of money in Asia, Africa, and South America, only to take the profits out with no concern for the social betterment of the countries, and say, "This is not just." It will look at our alliance with the landed gentry of South America and say, "This is not just." The Western arrogance of feeling that it has everything to teach others and nothing to learn from them is not just.”
― Martin Luther King Jr.
“A Constitution of Government once changed from Freedom, can
never be restored. Liberty, once lost, is lost forever.”
― John Adams, Letters of John Adams, Addressed to His Wife
― John Adams, Letters of John Adams, Addressed to His Wife
Wednesday, September 30, 2015
Rumpole and Yoda: When there really is no “law”...and a rant.
Warning references to old British and American TV and movies, are coming; in addition to frustrating and sad moments.
Go get a cup of coffee or maybe a glass of wine…this is a
long one, but please try to read it all…
I had the opportunity to sit in high court yesterday. While the courtroom itself
is very basic, long tables, long benches, lots of microphones that don’t work
and the crest of Uganda on the wall above the high court judge, who by the way
was wearing some kind of Japanese Kimono robe?? Maybe he just likes red and
wanted to add some color to what would be one of the longest days I have had in
many, many years.
So judge dressed like Asian Yoda, attorneys dressed like
they watched too many Rumpole of the Bailey episodes, sans wigs, and the
prisoners dressed, well, like everyone else in the room. Oh I should mention
that every case, except the one I am there to see is a defilement case (for the
Americans, read rape…of a child).
First case is called, and it is to determine if the
statement the accused (and yes they pronounced it achused…all frigging day!)
had been signed under duress. Here is where it gets a bit frustrating. This is
how justice works here. Someone, anyone, can have you arrested on their word
only. You can be held for two days without being charged with any crime. During
the two days you are locked in a cell maybe 6x10 with up to 15 other accused
people. No toilet, no bedding. Twice a day you are “paraded” in the yard where
you are questioned, and questioned, and beaten to try to “get the truth”. Ok so
maybe that is some of the sad part. Finally, this accused, was taken to a room with
only one officer (he was not allowed to have a witness…that is actually the
law) where he apparently made his confession and was cautioned (given his
rights to remain silent…there is no right to have an attorney, a witness, a
friend, someone, anyone).
So State Attorney calls Detective (fat old man dressed like
mobster in Florida). Takes him through the sequence of events that led to the
taking of the statement…in painstaking slowness… even having him read the
statement and show us all where everyone had signed. Then detective is cross examined
by the defense attorney who asks exactly the same questions…not exaggerating
here, which again includes him identifying the document and signatures. We are
now one hour into this…the best is yet to come. It goes back to the State
Attorney who, and I am not making this up, asks exactly the same questions again- starting with his name, rank, how
long on the job…and yes having him once more read and identify the signatures
on the statement. Hour two is gone…there are 8 more guys waiting to have their
cases heard.
Then the accused is taken through the whole question, cross process except
he is only asked to identify his signature. Oh and did I mention that court is
in English, the accused is Acholi (who spoke and understood English) but had to
wait to have all questions translated to Luo and then all his answers (even
when he answered in English, his lawyer told him to answer in Luo) had to be
translated to the court. As hour three is moving on, the judge finally rules
that the statement is admissible and then offers the accused the opportunity to
give his defense---literally his side of the court case! Hour three gone.
Finally about halfway through that painfully slow question, translate, answer,
translate, pause for everyone to write it all down long hand….the judge decides
to hear the rest another day and the accused is excused.
My butt now is sore. Ok case number two….don’t remember, my
brain stopped working because I am hungry and so appalled by the lack of
preparation by the attorneys...who all appear to have been hung over and who
clearly had not looked at the files until that minute in court.
Hour four…gone Lunchtime. Sad part coming….
Back in court the first case called is aggravated
defilement. So defilement is sex with anyone under the age of 18, and
aggravated defilement is sex with a child under the age of 10 while infected
with HIV. The judge starts to read…the
entire trial transcript…which would have been laughable except that he
began with “there are four things that have to be proven for aggravated
defilement” 1. Child was under 10 2. The assault happened. 3. The accused is
HIV positive and 4. That it was the accused who did the assaulting. “the child
was eight, the defilement took place, the accused is HIV positive, so it is the
last requirement that must be determined.” The penalty for this crime is death.
Yes, an eight year old girl was raped by a 30 something year old man who was
not only HIV positive, but knew that he was HIV positive…this happened in 2012.
One hour later after we had been treated to a really bad
episode of Criminal Minds read out in court, and while the accused stands,
blank faced, it is recommended by the “advisors” that the judge find the accused guilty of the aggravated defilement.n I am not sure what their
qualifications are, but all along I thought they were the court reporters (there
are only two and they kept switching out with another two), Judge then sets another date
for the accused to receive his judgement—so not really sure what the purpose of
that whole production was?? I should mention that while the judge was reading about
the achused he also kept talking about the “prostitution” and I spent a great
deal of horrified time trying to figure out what prostitutes had to do with the
case…Prosecution, prosecution, light bulb now on. Ugandlish.
Next case, also aggravated defilement, but for some reason
we were not treated to the extended details of the crime, just the “advisors” recommendation,
guilty of simple defilement- not sure how any defilement can be simple, but one
of the four criteria must not have been proven. Again another court date set
for the judge to make a ruling.
The next two cases went quickly, withdrawn by the State
Attorney after five years---five years!
Oh and the reason I was at court, a friend of mine was put in prison for seven days because his phone went off in court the week before. After seven days, he stayed in prison for an additional three days because the judge was took a long weekend so there was no court...imagine being sent to Vacaville or San Quentin because your phone goes off in court! (and he had turned it off, but it accidentally turned on while in his pocket). Did I mention he is a husband, dad and really amazing human being? Yeah...that does not matter to those with the power.
A few years ago I read a book by Gary Haugen, founder of
International Justice Mission called The Locust Effect:Why the End of Poverty Requires the End of Violence. It was
sad, shocking, depressing, and dealt with the reality of injustice faced by the
poor in developing countries. Uganda is a developing country and I have
had glimpses of the corruption and inequality of justice for the poor…I can
read about it, and even see small episodes of it, but I have now been baptized
in it and quite frankly am not sure what to do with my new knowledge---hence
your opportunity to read this blog because sometimes I just need to get it from
my head to the page in order to process.
The men in court yesterday were there because they could
either afford an attorney, or they had friends or family who could afford an
attorney, or the victim could afford to press the case forward. For the rest of
the accused…and remember a case can be brought against you on nothing more than
one person’s word…you can sit in prison (not county lock up people, with
toilets, TV and two to a cell) but prison, for years…forgotten by a system that
operates on bribes.
Two stories: 1. Survival
Like in healthcare and education here in Uganda, in prison, only the basics are
provided- building, guards, blanket (if you are lucky, sometimes takes two months to get, sometimes taken by the mean prisoners). Feeding is once a day and consists of the water the beans were cooked in, followed by beans 100 give or take, and then posho measured in three inch square (think solid cream of wheat cut like jello). It is the responsibility of your family
and friends to supply real food etc. Those without visitors rely on those with
visitors for their survival. They cook for you, you share some of your food…that
is survival.
2. The Step Mother
I have written in the past about how all the evil step-mother stories must have
originated in Uganda…here is another one to add to the list…a fourteen year old
boy is set to inherit his father’s cattle. The step-mother is not happy about
losing the wealth (cattle are like a really good mutual fund) to this boy and
decides to accuse him of defiling her daughter. Accused, arrested, charged,
thrown in prison…forgotten. Now sixteen, he has not been visited by anyone-
unfortunately too many Ugandan men are afraid to be men and do the right thing,
instead, they hide behind their horrible, evil wives. So he seeks out ways to
survive. He has not been to court and probably never will. He should not even be in the adult prison, but in the remand home for juveniles. He will sit in
prison because he has no money, he is just a child and his story is sadly not
unique.
If you made it this far, thank you. A bit of a rant coming
up here…. I told you there would be sad parts and I am really trying to
understand, as I have for the past year, how people can be so cruel to each
other. How we cannot see past our own comfort to believe the things that are
really happening to people outside our immediate circle. How we can be so
desensitized. Humans of New York is doing a series right now on the refugees
arriving in Greece…read the stories please, read Gary Haugen’s book please.
Take this seriously please. Please please please educate yourself, it is sad
and depressing and will rip your heart out, but isn’t that better than being
numb to the world? Isn’t that better than not feeling anything? Be thankful that
your ancestor’s boat landed in America instead of say, Hungry (not that a boat
can land there but you get my meaning). I am blessed with so many opportunities
because my Great grandfather made the decision to save his family by traveling
across the globe to look for a better life and his boat landed in New York. He
was processed without question (name, age, country of origin, boat, number in
the family, I have seen the records) - he was not asked what God he prayed to
or what his political affiliations were, or even if he could speak English (he
couldn’t). Was everyone happy that the “immigrants” had arrived? NO. But they
were welcomed and allowed to come and provision was made and the world did not end.
New
Colossus
Not like the brazen giant of Greek fame,
With conquering limbs astride from land to land;
Here at our sea-washed, sunset gates shall stand
A mighty woman with a torch, whose flame
Is the imprisoned lightning, and her name
Mother of Exiles. From her beacon-hand
Glows world-wide welcome; her mild eyes command
The air-bridged harbor that twin cities frame.
"Keep, ancient lands, your storied pomp!" cries she
With silent lips. "Give me your tired, your poor,
Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,
The wretched refuse of your teeming shore.
Send these, the homeless, tempest-tossed to me,
I lift my lamp beside the golden door!"
With conquering limbs astride from land to land;
Here at our sea-washed, sunset gates shall stand
A mighty woman with a torch, whose flame
Is the imprisoned lightning, and her name
Mother of Exiles. From her beacon-hand
Glows world-wide welcome; her mild eyes command
The air-bridged harbor that twin cities frame.
"Keep, ancient lands, your storied pomp!" cries she
With silent lips. "Give me your tired, your poor,
Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,
The wretched refuse of your teeming shore.
Send these, the homeless, tempest-tossed to me,
I lift my lamp beside the golden door!"
---Emma Lazarus (1900)
Saturday, July 25, 2015
Apathy and Empathy
Apathy is by definition a “Lack of interest, concern,
or emotion; indifference.” It is what is happening to our world…to us as
individuals. We are numbed by the bombardment of media images of pain,
suffering, violence and death making it difficult to process the horrors taking
place in the world…so we shut down, click to the next screen, and scroll past
the unpleasant posts. I have seen comments from people that include: “if you
are living a good life, why not leave well enough alone” REALLY? Is it just about
us and our comfort? I sometimes think that compassion lessons with the increase
in technology.
On the other hand, empathy is “the power of
understanding and imaginatively entering into another person's feelings.” It is
the connection of one human being to another for no other reason than because we
share a humanity.
Is it possible for us to reverse the trend? Is it possible
for us to genuinely feel the pain of a mother or father who has lost a child to hunger,
murder, or illness? Or to imagine what it must be like to live in fear of your
government, have bombs drop on your village, or live in a refugee camp for
years on end?
We, (and I use that term in the most Western sense) rather
than sit complacently in our comfortable lives, should rather feel a need to
create a world in which all children can go to school, eat at least two meals a
day, and where parents have the ability to work, provide basics like clothing
and shoes. Or where girls are not raped on the subway or on the way to the
latrine, where public servant actually means serving the public, and where we
care enough about our environment that we treat for what it is…the thing that
gives us all life.
I am not speaking as one “holier than thou” because I
am as guilty of falling into the apathy trap as anyone. But it is time to stop
pretending that we have not created a greed filled culture in which money talks
and honesty, truth, compassion, and love have lost their meaning. I am calling
out the “religious” who quote the Bible while shaming their neighbor, and
vilify anyone who does not accept their “teaching” as correct. I am calling out
the presidents, prime ministers, legislators and judiciary who “serve” the
people while imposing laws that suppress freedom of speech, assembly, liberty,
and belief. I am calling out the teachers who sit back while their classrooms
are turned into factories for sedated students and places where creativity and
individuality is banned. And I am calling out each of us to really look at those
around us, to feel for one minute the pain or loss or desperation that they are
feeling and to find a way, human to human, to empathize.
Friday, March 27, 2015
Birthdays
Birthdays…we all have them and yet for some they mean so
much and for others…well they don’t even know the date. I was asked the other
day how people here celebrate birthdays. It is something that I have thought
about off and on but never very deeply. When a student a couple years ago told me
that it was his birthday, I asked what he was doing. He replied, "Going to class." I was so sad that no one was doing anything for his birthday that I went a
bought him a candy bar. He must have thought I was crazy…but thankfully never
said so.
You see, birthdays are not celebrated over here, at least
culturally. This seemed so strange to me mostly because of my culture. I was brought up in a
home where celebrating your birth was one of the biggest days of the year. My
parents always made us feel special, right from the waffle breakfast in the
morning to the slumber party that night. My mom even made pie or cheesecake because
I did not like ordinary cake. I can see now that it was a celebration of me, as
a person, someone special and individual and I was important.
I had my own theories of why birthdays are not celebrated
here. Money being the main one, and information. So I asked around and it turns
out I was not far off. Extended family is very common and important in the
Acholi culture, which means lots of people. Most families are peasant farmers,
making very little money…subsisting on what they grow, what they can sell or
trade. It would be impossible to celebrate everyone in the family’s birth every
year. The second reason is that there are a lot of people who don’t know when
they were born. There are no official records kept, no birth certificate,
social security card, hospital records. Which got me thinking how obsessed we
are about age. What age did the baby learn to walk, when was she potty trained,
when did she start school, turning 10, 16, 18, 21, 30, 40, 50…100. And of
course all the commercial items aimed at each age, walkers, training diapers, “back
to school”, driving, insurance, voting, drinking…and then the age reversal
products to make us younger and more beautiful.
I kind of like the idea of just
living life every day and not counting down every year only to wonder where the
time has gone.
I am turning 50...and a bit... today and some days I forget how
old I am. I actually have to do the math. This may be because of my age, or
because I really don’t keep track anymore. I know I have people who love me; I have people I
love. I am doing something that inspires, frustrates, breaks my heart and makes
it sing.
The one thing that I think gets missed when birthdays are
just another day in a person’s life, especially that of a child, is the feeling
that just for one day, you are special, you mean something and your life is
worth celebrating. So for my birthday this year, I want everyone who has taken
the time to read this … far… to celebrate the life of someone close to you. Not
because it is their birthday, but because they are special, they mean
something, and their life is worth celebrating. And for God’s sake, eat
something delicious for me!
Tuesday, May 20, 2014
Simply Life
Simple. Life is really a simple thing.
Holding a baby,
laughing with the women in the market,
talking to a friend,
walking down a road and noticing the beauty,
watching a storm roll in,
looking at a plate of food so full of color you take a picture,
stopping to greet, putting aside your “work” because someone needs your help, simple.
It becomes less simple when you become outraged that a woman…it could be your mother or sister, your wife or aunt or cousin or grandmother… is being threatened, abused, oppressed, or treated like less of a person only because she is a woman,
wonder how a mother could leave a child…just leave and never look back,
want to see every child have the chance to hold a book and understand what it says,
struggle to understand how anyone can have so little value for life that they take it from another.
laughing with the women in the market,
talking to a friend,
walking down a road and noticing the beauty,
watching a storm roll in,
looking at a plate of food so full of color you take a picture,
stopping to greet, putting aside your “work” because someone needs your help, simple.
It becomes less simple when you become outraged that a woman…it could be your mother or sister, your wife or aunt or cousin or grandmother… is being threatened, abused, oppressed, or treated like less of a person only because she is a woman,
wonder how a mother could leave a child…just leave and never look back,
want to see every child have the chance to hold a book and understand what it says,
struggle to understand how anyone can have so little value for life that they take it from another.
What is it the makes us want to be right?
Have power?
Inflict pain?
Impose on others?
Be cruel, thoughtless, selfish, radical, and extreme?
Would it really be so hard to live simply, so others can simply live? To give generously so that other can simply have?
Have power?
Inflict pain?
Impose on others?
Be cruel, thoughtless, selfish, radical, and extreme?
Would it really be so hard to live simply, so others can simply live? To give generously so that other can simply have?
Life is really a simple
thing…
But we don’t live it that way.
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